Fear of Aging
I almost abandon my blog for the past two weeks.
From my nuffnang account, I realised that the number visitors to my blog has drop tremendously too.
The past two weeks were indeed a hectic week for my hubby's family.
My mother-in-law was admitted in one of the private hospital.
Everyone is taking turns to take care of her.
Most of the time, I was sleeping alone.
(Finally I found that I am so used to sleep beside hubby. Without him, I have sleepless night.)
Taking care of old people is not easy.
Looking at them getting older and weaker is so frightening.
When you are in the hospital, you will see a lot of sad people around, either the patients or the family members.
Last night, I saw a couple with their daughter sitting/resting at the front door of the hospital.
I saw them when my MIL admitted to ICU.
Surprisingly, I still saw them again last night.
Their expression were still the same.
SAD
My sister in law had the worse weeks.
Both her mother and father-in-law were admitted.
I understand that the FIL is in a deep coma status.
Looking/thinking of all the events in my recent life, remind me of this movie.
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
My best friend recommended me to watch the movie during Chinese New Year.
Being the kiamsiap me, I downloaded the torrent and watched it for free.
But to those who have yet to watch it, I think this is one movie that worth to watch in our local cineplex.
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button tells the haunting, existential fable of a man, born at the close of World War I, who ages backwards while those around him age forward, the old-fashioned way. Where others are born unformed and unwrinkled, Benjamin comes into the world a decrepit old man; where others wither, he dies in a pink and creaseless state of infancy. For Benjamin, love is inextricable from loss since his path runs counterclockwise to nature. This unsettling, melancholy notion is attached by the thinnest thread to its original literary source, a 1922 short story by F. Scott Fitzgerald. But in the hands of director David Fincher, and with Brad Pitt as Benjamin, this Button is a curious case indeed: an extravagantly ambitious movie that's easy to admire but a challenge to love."
Source: http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20248898,00.html
This movie makes me think about life.
May be it is better to live the other way round.
Age backwards.
May be one will appreciate life better instead of appreciating life after we are sick.
It is because you are born old and sick.
When you get younger, you regain your strength and you will know how hard is life when you are sick.
You don't have to agree with me.
I think I am crazy too to have that sort of idea.
I just have fear of growing old and sick.
The past two weeks were indeed a hectic week for my hubby's family.
My mother-in-law was admitted in one of the private hospital.
Everyone is taking turns to take care of her.
Most of the time, I was sleeping alone.
(Finally I found that I am so used to sleep beside hubby. Without him, I have sleepless night.)
Taking care of old people is not easy.
Looking at them getting older and weaker is so frightening.
When you are in the hospital, you will see a lot of sad people around, either the patients or the family members.
Last night, I saw a couple with their daughter sitting/resting at the front door of the hospital.
I saw them when my MIL admitted to ICU.
Surprisingly, I still saw them again last night.
Their expression were still the same.
SAD
My sister in law had the worse weeks.
Both her mother and father-in-law were admitted.
I understand that the FIL is in a deep coma status.
Looking/thinking of all the events in my recent life, remind me of this movie.
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button.
My best friend recommended me to watch the movie during Chinese New Year.
Being the kiamsiap me, I downloaded the torrent and watched it for free.
But to those who have yet to watch it, I think this is one movie that worth to watch in our local cineplex.
"The Curious Case of Benjamin Button tells the haunting, existential fable of a man, born at the close of World War I, who ages backwards while those around him age forward, the old-fashioned way. Where others are born unformed and unwrinkled, Benjamin comes into the world a decrepit old man; where others wither, he dies in a pink and creaseless state of infancy. For Benjamin, love is inextricable from loss since his path runs counterclockwise to nature. This unsettling, melancholy notion is attached by the thinnest thread to its original literary source, a 1922 short story by F. Scott Fitzgerald. But in the hands of director David Fincher, and with Brad Pitt as Benjamin, this Button is a curious case indeed: an extravagantly ambitious movie that's easy to admire but a challenge to love."Source: http://www.ew.com/ew/article/0,,20248898,00.html
This movie makes me think about life.
May be it is better to live the other way round.
Age backwards.
May be one will appreciate life better instead of appreciating life after we are sick.
It is because you are born old and sick.
When you get younger, you regain your strength and you will know how hard is life when you are sick.
You don't have to agree with me.
I think I am crazy too to have that sort of idea.
I just have fear of growing old and sick.
6 comments:
i understand hw u feel..i'm afraid of losing my loved ones when i see them aged..T__T
hope ur MIL recover soon..all the best..
My mum was in the medical centre for months...and I had to sleep there, juggling between that and home and tuition and all the marking and what not. Was so stressed out and exhausted, I came down with shingles. Now at home, physically healthy but unable to walk...and I have to be there every morning to be with her. Not too bad...but many other things will have to be put aside. It's ok with me though...the least I can do in return for all that she did when i was growing up.
Annie: Thanks. She is recuperating. Hope to see her gaining back her strength.
STP: Yup.. that is the least that we can do at the moment.
The journey of young and old
It never fascinates the mind
We are too scared to think of it
The day we were born
We know we are going to disappear
Think of it as a positive journey
Learning and acquiring wisdom
The left and the right of experiences
When the day arrives
We know how much to pay
How much to suffer
Eat and exercise
Drink a lot of water
Stay positive do some good
Whenever you find the time
It helps you
Of the pain raging in the mind
Of growing old suffering pain
The sign posts everywhere
Letting people see and realize
Give a help when you can
Show concern when it arrives
A small deed here and there
It helps to reduce the suffering pain
Yet nobody can have it easy
It is working on it every time
Growing old is giving others a chance
To taste the living to know how it is like
When you hop over to the other dimension
A totally new experience you will find
I watched the movie and it's really good! I think it's good to age backwards too. Just imagine, we get healthier and stronger as the years pass by. How nice!! It's like suffering at the beginning, but life just keeps getting better and better! : )
Caravanserai: I like your positive thinking. For not knowing what is at the other dimension, that is what I am worrying. I hope it is just like what you mentioned, a totally new experience. But I do hope, the hopping over will be a fast and easy one. :)
Foogpc: I agreed with you.
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